Moody

Man, I am in quite a funk right now. It's not a fun place to be. I'm trying to shake it but I'm having a hard time. I have that lump in my throat, the kind that could turn into a cry. I had a breakdown this morning and I'm struggling with it. I feel sad and it's because of unresolved matters that I've kept bottled up for awhile now. I'm going to take action for it today. I'm nervous to be honest because I don't know what's going to come out of it and I'm not sure even what I'm going to say. I just know that I can't go on any further without addressing my concerns because it's eating me up and there's no reason why I should be punishing myself for it. That's what I'm doing...I'm punishing myself. I'm not doing it intentionally or feel that I deserve it; in fact I didn't know I was doing it at all. Leaving a concern or issue alone is a form of punishment because it causes us to stop living the life we could be happy in. It just hangs in the air while we use all our energy trying to forget about it. It is self-destructive when we're trying to take the lead of our own lives because it takes us back to where we started, back to self-denial.