I'm jumpin in!

So here's the deal about what's going on with me right now. I'm not going to be writing here for awhile, I've chosen to take on Thank Dog! and expanding the business. I know I've said this before but now I'm putting myself into action. I want this, so it's time to stop talking and start doing. We have a blog on the web site where I'll be writing about what's going on and the progress we WILL be making. Come and check us out! Until then...see ya!

Another breakthrough weekend

HAHA! This happens to me every time! I feel that Kristen was the last piece of the puzzle to my whole Landmark experience. Her name came up many times for me during each course that I have taken. I resisted calling her, only because I didn't know why and what I was going to say. What I got from this weekend is acknowledging my resentment towards her. We used to be the best of friends all through college, up to the point when I moved. After Jill and I lived in California for awhile, our relationship drifted and neither of us knew why. I'd go home for a visit, not wanting to be there because I felt Kristen didn't approve of me anymore. While I was living that story, she was living a different one, which made her get that I didn't want to be there. It turned into a whole lot of resentment and sadness. I, subconsciously, cut her out of my life due to my act of "You're not the boss of me!" After all, I felt rejection from the person who I looked up to the most..."You're not the boss of me anymore, here I'll show you!"

It felt really great getting it all out in the open. Both of us have been carrying this around for almost 7 years and never talked about it once. We both used the excuse, "Oh, we don't talk much. We're not that close anymore." Wow, how ridiculous is that!?! We both laughed after we shared the stories we've been living about each other. I feel like we got our sisterly love back and now we have two more days of fun together...life couldn't be any sweeter.

This Weekend

Jill and I just dropped Kristen off at Landmark. It was like seeing our little baby off for the first day of school. I felt a little emotional....happy, excited, sad, and anxious all at the same time. It's like that when a loved one goes through. You want them to get as much out of it as possible and if that happens, sometimes it'll be an ass kicking and that's where my emotions are coming from. I know what it feels like, so I know what could be in store for her. Not saying it always has to be about tears and sadness to get those life changing breakthroughs, but it's definitely a possibility. So yeah, I'm all over the place right now...meaning this will probably be another Landmark Forum experience for me as well. It happens EVERY TIME over these weekends. If Kristen has a big breakthrough, most likely I'll have one too. It's just how it goes...

Awwwww....Krissy is all grown up;) Hehe.

Your turn sis!

Kristen, my older sister, is flying in this evening to do the Landmark Forum this weekend. We're all very excited as I said in a previous post. I'm curious to see what it will hold for her and what she'll get out of it. I don't have any expectations, you can't when one goes through. After all, everyone's experience is different, people dive in more than others, and stories are never the same. I'm just looking forward to having our traditional Landmark conversations every night. Those are the best and especially now since it'll be sharing we've probably never had before. FUN!

A Perfect Sunday

Sunday was a wild and very fun day. Calen and I stopped in at the Abbey for a drink after we were finished running our errands. It was a nice day out and since we had no plans for the evening we thought,"What the hell?" It's funny, both of us get really shy when it's just us two in a gay bar. It's silly because we both know how easy it is for us to make friends, but if it's us who has to make the first move...forget it. Fear of rejection I'm sure. Anyway, we ended up knowing a few people there, so an automatic group formed and that's when the alcohol took over the afternoon. HA! We were having so much fun talking to randoms, dancing a little here and there, and just making each other laugh.

As the evening approached, we all came to a consensus that we weren't ready for the Sunday bar excursion to be over so that's when we walked over to Here for some dancing. We stayed there for a bit, drank more, and danced to get our wiggles out. Calen and I were with two other people at this point. Unfortunately, they had to go home and that's when a text message from two of our other friends was received. They wanted us to meet them for a late night dinner at 10. We were all about it so to pass time we went and checked out Eleven, a bar that just opened that I haven't had the opportunity to check out yet. It was great! We sat at the bar and talked to everyone who was sitting there too. We were making instant friends, having great conversation, and getting more drunk as the night when on.

10 o'clock arrived and it was time for dinner. Calen and I took a cab to Basix and met our friends for some yummy dinner. We were pretty drunk at this time, but still able to socialize properly...hehe. When we finished, our friends dropped us off at East West to continue our night of spontaneity and fun. We made friends with everyone who were sitting at the bar, which turned into a pizza party after they ordered a bunch from Domino's. It was hilarious and so random. We finally got home around 3 a.m. to call it a night. I'm so glad we did it and there wasn't a single plan made all day long...it was all on a whim and totally unexpected. Being spontaneous IS fun...more of that please!

Here we go again!

Recently, I've been having a bit of writer's block. I know I've written about this quite a few times before, so I guess it's that time again. I can tell you how much I've been enjoying my time off from Landmark. Maybe that's it. Maybe I'm not analyzing myself so much anymore and I don't even realize it. I have been feeling much more relaxed and also having breakthroughs that seemed impossible to me before. Being vulnerable hasn't been an issue, my communication is better than ever, and my personal life, along with the people around me has hit another beginning of a new and exciting growth period. I must say that life is pretty good right now and things are really starting to fall in place. Wow, I can feel it by just writing this...

I haven't been writing due to...

Some personal things going on for the past two weeks and I'm getting over my head cold that I've had for 3 days now. I'm finally feeling better in all areas:) YAY!